so i want to wake up and be completely non-existent. and have this blue-haired boy tell me that he just cant stop thinking about me. and that when he tries, his whole insides know it and his whole insides feel it. but i dont have a blue haired boy and i dont even have existence to get rid of. i'm sick of decisions fucking everything up and i want to start living by heart. and lets just get rid of sense and totality and everything else cuz by blowing it all to shit we wont be making any sense at all....and thats okay cuz sense is overrated anyway. it all is. but i love it all. i love chance, for now, thats all i have.