it/s five-thirty am. i.ve slept for 38hours and any valium i have lfet in me is gone. but i am not here. i am not here. i feel arms moving. i feel fingers typing. but i am not here. also: i touched my stomach fifteen times to make sure i could still feel. i think it worked. my eye. i look punched. i wish i had someone to just laydown withme right now. i just want to lay down and let the valium wear off. and when i need to feel like i am here, i could reach over and touch that someone. my eyes just closed. i think 140mg of valium was too much. but i was in pain. and now i feel nothing.

to feel nothing is fucking bliss.

anyone want to come feel nothing with me? i.d love to hear from you.

xo-bee