when i stop doing this, i will start doing that. i'll take you in my mouth and you will make me feel nothing.

(to this, i will add components of this week, next month, and the never happened. all at higher frequencies and smaller amplitudes.)

your heart will look like a sinewave graph, oscillating between:

I LOVE YOU.
I.LL FUCK YOU.
DON.T TOUCH ME.

(since i find it hard to vary between alternate extremes, we.'ll call this "that thing that never happened" and you'll just announce that within the defined period of time, i was never your girlfriend and you were never mine.)

LOOK AT MY FACE:
you owe me this much:

why do i wake up sweating when you're not there to touch me?