i cant shake it. i will now write a million bits and pieces of isaac, jeremiah, and eric. i need to scream it at ridiculous decibels off the top of really high and important buildings that danger mouse means everyfuckingthing.

bits:

:i.m the same as i was when i was 6 years old /and oh my god i feel so damn old / i don.t really feel anything:

:the universe works on a math equation that never even ever really even ends in the end / infinity spirals out creation / we,re on the tip of its tongue, and it is saying / well, we aint sure where you stand / you aint machines and you aint land / and the plants and the animals, they are linked / and the plants and the animals eat each other:

:broke account so i broke a sweat / i.ve bought some things that i sort of regret about now / broke your glasses, but it broke the ice / you said that i was an asshole and i paid the price / broken hearts want broken necks / i.ve done some things that i want to forget but i can.t / broke my pace and ran out of time / sometimes i.m so full of shit that it should be a crime / broke a promise cause my car broke down / such a classic excuse it should be bronze by now / broke up, and i.m relieved somehow / it.s the end of the discussions that just go round and round and round, and round, and round, and round, and round, and round it shouldnt have been anyway:

:you.re starting conversations / you don.t even know the topic:

:i don.t feel like i want to be by myself:

:there.s one thing to know about this earth / we.re put here just to make more dirt, and that.s ok:

:other people.s lives seem more interesting cuz they aint mine / well i.m fed up and i need to go out of existance or just down the road forever:

:everyones afraid of their own life / if you could be anything you wanted, i bet youd be disappointed. am i right? / no one really knows the ones they love / if you knew everything they thought i bet you.d wish that they.d jjust shut up / well you were the dull sound of sharp math when you were alive / no ones gonna play the harp when you die / and if i had a nickel for every damn dime i might have half the time / do you mind?:

:i didn.t go to work for a month / i didn.t leave my bed for eight days straight / i haven.t hung out with anyone / cuz if i did, i.d have nothing to say:

:and you think you.ve figured out everything / i think i know my geometry pretty damn well / you say what you need so you.ll get more / if you could just milk it for everything / i.ve said what i said and you know what i mean / but i can.t still focus on anything:

:we.re all so funny but he.s lost his joke now:

:he don.t remember how it got there / it had a number written on his forearm / it spelled disaster:

:i.m not sure who i am but i know who i.ve been:

:i might / and you might / but neither of us do, though / and neither of us will:

:she ionizes and atomizes / then turns to sunlight / he realizes and itemizes / pulls harder than gravity / she ionizes and atomizes / then turns to sunlight / flourescent lightbulbs will make an absense of dark, but / the light just aint there still and she said / i am feeling empty /the real lights can make you heavy but never ever really empty / flourescent lights will always equal empty:

:and i claim i.m not excited with my life any more / so i blame this town, this job, these friends / the truth is its myself / and i.m trying to understand myself and pinpoint where i am / when i finally get it figured out / i.ve changed the whole damn plan:

:talking shit about a pretty sunset / blanketing opinions that i.ll probably regret soon / i.ve changed my mind so much i cant even trust it / my mind changed me so much i cant even trust myself:

:every sick, fickle fucker / childhood.s what makes ya!!!! / till they treat ya like tundra: / every planned occupation / surefire disappointment up ahead / till they treat ya like desert:

:well, i.ll go to college and i.ll learn some big words

and i.ll talk real loud / goddamn right i.ll be heard / you.ll remember all the guys that said all those big words / he mustve learned in college:

:when you think you.re walking you.re just moving the ground / when you think you.re talking you.re just moving your mouth:

:and the televisions gone / go to the grocery store, buy some new friends:

:taking heartache with hard work / goddamn i am such a jerk, i cant do anything / and i shout that you.re all fakes / and you should have seen the look on your face / and i guess thats what it takes / when comparing your bellyaches / and its been a long time which agrees with this watch of mine / and i know that i miss you / and i.m sorry if i dissed you:

:i dont feel and it feels great:

:everything that keeps me together is falling apart / i.ve got this thing that i consider my only art of fucking people over:

:your heart felt good / it was dripping pitch and made of wood / and your hands and knees felt cold and wet on the grass to me:

:the universe is shaped exactly like the earth if you go straight long enough you.ll end up where you were:

:its been agreed, the whole world stinks / so no ones taking showers anymore:

:we.re all doctors trading sadness for numbness / grass looks much greener but its green-painted cement / mayors and machines / now they.re cleaning the pavement / you can.t make dirt clean so we.ll just lemon-scent it:

:what you do what you do what you do with yr eyes / what you see what you see what you see as an astronaut okay / what you eat what you eat what you eat as an alien:

:blue cadet 3, do you connect?:

[yr the bestest band in the universe. i.ll keep that simple because it is.]