maybe.you.didnt.invite.me.here.but.i.showed.up.anyway.

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for some reason i want to be light. i said goodbye to everything old... and miss iroc red is gone now too (and we had some fun, didnt we?) and i'm a truck girl now..cuz they're mighty - and mighty is good in a world of nails. d, i'll see you on friday and i just know that bodies will become transportation...and for those three days, i'll want nothing but to wish you forever. and you're the part of me that wanted to be healthy and a little less fuckedup. you're the part of me that loves sex and likes to remain stable. i just lose that part a lot . and when i find it, i usually dont need it anymore. (maybe you didnt invite me here, but i showed up anyway)

i guess i'm just a fleeting idea. cuz i feel so not real. and i want to jump up and down (light) screaming MAKE ME SAD, MAKE ME MAD, MAKE ME FEEL ALRIGHT. and everytime my feet bounce off the floor, the words come. and the silence comes. and the love comes. and the girlzone opens. and more love comes. and the words....the words just fucking come. (maybe you didnt invite me here, but i showed up anyway)

and 14 thousand dollars later, i have a friend named tacoma.